W14D4.Thursday.July 30th

wow - so this isn't the "daily" or even more often log I had planned and hoped it to be

I could complain that if I had a way to update from my cell - that I would update more - but that is not altogether true - with the exception of a couple days while I took vacation and the two weekends prior, I didn't have good internet availability at home - but that has been repaired for a while - and still only one post made it to this log

I can definitely pinpoint the exact reason/excuse for my neglect this past week - I DIDN'T WANT TO - I am in a bad place I tell you - hormone central has had me bawling for days in a row - taking EVERYTHING out of context and turning it into the world's most unappreciated and unloved mother/wife in the world - what a pity party!!! I must be on the mend somewhat because I can actually discuss it without feeling overwhelmed. Which I am sure I still am - yet I have gotten a bit of my "positive spin" balance back and that helps tremendously. I was actually so upset that I am almost positive without the help from conversations with my mother and two of my best friends that I would be separated from my family and sleeping on someone's couch or even in the van for most of this week. Pregnancy hormones and the hardest head on Earth do not make for a happy Viki.

okay so that's off my chest - which is HUGE - I really need some alone time to get some good pics - I bet these hooters would cost thousands to reproduce :-)

my weight this week has been 141.5 - 142
I have been drinking a couple sodas a day but also milk every night with oreos - yum - is it bedtime yet?
thankfully I am pooping regularly - about a week ago I got a bit scared though - we had eaten at golden corral's buffet one night and then at my favorite pizzeria’s lunch buffet the next day and there was no sign of poop for two days following - didn't turn out bad at all - just the fear of the unknown that had me biting my nails (for FIBER!!!)
I hate to type this - I feel I will jinx myself - but superstitions aside - it's inevitable - I think the heartburn is starting - very mild right now - only 3 or 4 small bouts this past week that quickly dissipated. Yeah! I’m not stupid though – I know it will come again with a vengeance and stay with me until D Day. My dilemma? I clearly recall taking meds for it with Junior kept them at home and in my purse and at work – they were WONDERFUL and worked very quickly and tasted great! What more could you ask for during late pregnancy. BUT THEY DON”T MAKE THEM ANYMORE!!! UUUGGHGGHHHHH – I hate trying new meds – just to pop something in your mouth and have no idea if I am gonna gag from the disgusting taste or texture or if I get it past my taste buds and then it doesn’t even work and then there’s all the wasted money since I won’t keep it if it makes me gag or doesn’t work! I do need to record one of my pregnancy burps though – they do gross me out but also amuse me because I am sooo not a burper. I’ve always faked a burp noise just so if I said “excuse or pardon me” people wouldn’t assume I had farted because my burps were always silent.

I am enjoying a large lot of maternity clothes my friend has loaned me for the season – most hang on me still – but so comfortable – but there’s a couple tops in there that really accentuate the positives of pregnancy :-) I know I say this now but will likely complain full force come the holidays this year – one thing I have to look forward to is the cutest maternity coat I have ever seen – is it bad for me to wish for and early fall this year????

And I thought I was supposed to be having more energy by the 14th week – did I need to go back a recalculate this whole thing????? My first semester FLEW by and the third will be here in the blink of an eye :-( I was just hoping for a couple months of energy in the middle! Fingers crossed maybe it’ll come back next week!