ok so once a week is better than none at all
i'm TIRED really tired - i have 20 minute spurts where my brain has energy and starts thinking of all kinds of stuff for my body to do - then BAM! I get worn out again
i tried to get to sleep early last night at 8pm - no such luck - after 9 before it finally happened and then after two different mid-sleep potty breaks i was awakened for the day by a VERY LOUD, WHINY st bernard at 613am
i am so tired - perhaps that is related to my current amnesia of how to function in life (e.g. - don't tip your waitress 20% AT A BUFFET; when you pay the babysitter on the 15th every month for 3 years, don't forget about it like it never happened every morning and every evening for six days; don't forget to buy side dishes for every meal you have prepared for a week while you walk around the grocery store stuffing your cart with double stuff oreo cookies, among other "NON-side dishes")
i want my memory back - it's literally gotten to the point where i just pray each day that no one expect anything of me - so that i can just slip through existence slumped over with my eyes half open
and the worst part (yet the absolute best part is) IT AIN"T GONNA GET BETTER - in fact in 5 months and 3 weeks approximately i'm definitely going to get even LESS sleep but i'll live - and i'll have a brand new baby to smell and suggle and smooch - i can hardly wait :-)
weight - 140.5 or 138.5 (I CAN"T REMEMBER - boo hoo hoo - i am so pitiful)
cokes - 3 so far
water - zippy
bloody boogers - 1.5
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