Uh huh – I am pregnant – REALLY pregnant – 35 weeks in fact (5 weeks to go) sometimes I don’t think my skin could stretch another millimeter but it does. I’m tired, I am so hormonal and emotional and I cry at Frosty the Snowman and Santa Clause 3 and if my kids don’t do what I ask them. I have no energy – for the most part – but if for some reason I get a burst or just work on something slow and steady, I pay for it dearly the next day. I can’t sleep for very long without waking up with back pain. Last night on the middle trip to the potty I could hardly stand up straight it was so painful but that was a front right pain – I was so tired that I didn’t even try to figure out if it was a contraction or time how long it lasted – I just went back to bed and prayed I could sleep through the pain. I did. For an hour. There was a huge (6th largest ever in the area) snowstorm this past weekend. I prayed that I’d go into labor. I’m ready. Well I’m emotionally and physically ready, of course my bag is not packed and my desk at work is not prepared, but I just don’t care. I am ready for one minute long real contractions that are less than 5 minutes apart for one hour. I’m not at the point where I’m issuing any eviction notices….yet. Everything that I complain about is something that I also love and will miss LIKE HER PUSHING ON MY RIGHT RIB ANYTIME I SIT DOWN – I sit for a living and the worst part is I am so uncomfortable and have such weak legs that I don’t want to even attempt to stand up. I’m sooooo tired. I do LOVE to watch her move around in there. I don’t understand why nobody asks to see her move or feel her move. Especially my family. I guess they don’t care or it’s not exciting for them. Weirdos. My thoughts are that there are a very limited number of opportunities left to enjoy the living belly – cuz this ain’t gonna happen again. I have had a rough couple of weeks though and at some points I did toy with the idea of trying for a boy. Then I came to my senses and actually prayed for a c-section so that I KNEW it was taken care of before I even left the hospital – who by the way changed the flu policy last week to a spouse and two visitors. Of course – as soon as my expectations are rearranged and I have come to accept the change – they change it again – I’ve had atleast 20 contractions today – I lost count – of course they are just practice ones but still – with everyone I think this is it and I know it’s not and it’s not – and all the missed expectations is taking a toll on me. I’m at the point where I doubt myself daily – I tell myself there is no way I can give four children the love, affection and time they each deserve and that I’ll forever destroy them because of my selfish choice to have a large family.
I weighed myself yesterday – 162.5 – this morning – 163.5
Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
W32D2.Tuesday.December 1st
WOW - I have been slack! Let's see what has happened in the past two weeks...
We had the ultrasound on W31D1 - IT'S A GIRL!!! Absolutely beyond a shodow of a doubt and per the technician - she is the right size for her gestation - give or take a week. I think she said the weight was estimated at 4.5 pounds, which I good sized compared to what the describe in my pregnancy email updates, plus if she gains 1 pound a week - uh - that's too big.
I'll get the low down from the doc's office on Thursday - but I seriously doubt they will change my due date or demand that I induce.
The tooth ache did not go away - I went to the dentist last Wednesday and he did a "partial" root canal. The radiating pain is gone, but I still have sharp shooting pain when I bite down on the tooth. I guess I'll be going back this Friday afternoon. woohoo NOT
Yesterday I realized that I had never updated my registries with PINK stuff - all the neutral stuff I deleted and chose pink if possible - it just sucks it's not yard sale season!!! I really am excited to know for sure - forget romanticism - I am definitely not a fan of the not-knowing. Over Thanksgiving we may have even decided on a name...Stephanie...but don't get too hooked on it - because the more I try to saw it - it keeps coming out Samantha. I think I may bug Joe to name her Samantha. Now for the middle name.....Jo???? Sami Jo - I love it :-)
As of TODAY......Weight - 159
Still no tape measure so ???? on the belly size
I'm tired and I want to go home. I NEED to get my work area ready for departure but I just can't focus! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
We had the ultrasound on W31D1 - IT'S A GIRL!!! Absolutely beyond a shodow of a doubt and per the technician - she is the right size for her gestation - give or take a week. I think she said the weight was estimated at 4.5 pounds, which I good sized compared to what the describe in my pregnancy email updates, plus if she gains 1 pound a week - uh - that's too big.
I'll get the low down from the doc's office on Thursday - but I seriously doubt they will change my due date or demand that I induce.
The tooth ache did not go away - I went to the dentist last Wednesday and he did a "partial" root canal. The radiating pain is gone, but I still have sharp shooting pain when I bite down on the tooth. I guess I'll be going back this Friday afternoon. woohoo NOT
Yesterday I realized that I had never updated my registries with PINK stuff - all the neutral stuff I deleted and chose pink if possible - it just sucks it's not yard sale season!!! I really am excited to know for sure - forget romanticism - I am definitely not a fan of the not-knowing. Over Thanksgiving we may have even decided on a name...Stephanie...but don't get too hooked on it - because the more I try to saw it - it keeps coming out Samantha. I think I may bug Joe to name her Samantha. Now for the middle name.....Jo???? Sami Jo - I love it :-)
As of TODAY......Weight - 159
Still no tape measure so ???? on the belly size
I'm tired and I want to go home. I NEED to get my work area ready for departure but I just can't focus! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
W30D4.Thursday.November 19th
I went to the doc today because my hands and feet are swelling and didn't get any better after sleeping all night. I also wasn't supposed to be seen for another week and a half and I really wanted to know what they considered a blood pressure issue. Otherwise, knowing me, I would have worked my pressure up just thinking about it all week. Soooooo they put my mind at ease on THAT subject but she measured me and remarked again that I was measuring big. Since it was my favorite nurse I told her my "theory" that the due date was off by two weeks and she double checked the dates and early ultrasound and verified that 1.24.10 was correct BUT she said she wanted me to go for another ultrasound. I asked her why they felt I was measuring big and she explained that 7 weeks ago I measured 1 week larger that my weeks pregnant and 3 weeks ago I measured 2 weeks larger, which is normal-ish, usually just means bigger baby. On this appointment, however, I measured 5 weeks larger. I am 30 weeks pregnant but measuring 35 weeks pregnant. And with the due date being accurate that would have the baby growing for 10 more weeks before coming out......OUCH! So we will know more on Monday when they do the ultrasound and there's a small chance they would induce a week early depending on the findings. It's gonna be a looooooong weekend but I am a little excited at the opportunity to see baby dalbo one more time PLUS maybe we'll get a definite gender this time. :-)
I still have swollen ankles and now they are dimpling when I press on them but I'm not uncomfortable and know what to look for if preeclampsia should enter the picture.
The baby continues to move a lot and I am enjoying it as much as possible since this will all become a faint memory before too long. We plan to celebrate Thanksgiving this weekend and with decorating and Santa visits to start off the holiday season, I know for sure that the next 6 weeks will become a quick blur and then shortly after that.......we will become six.....dalb6 for short. :-)
I still have swollen ankles and now they are dimpling when I press on them but I'm not uncomfortable and know what to look for if preeclampsia should enter the picture.
The baby continues to move a lot and I am enjoying it as much as possible since this will all become a faint memory before too long. We plan to celebrate Thanksgiving this weekend and with decorating and Santa visits to start off the holiday season, I know for sure that the next 6 weeks will become a quick blur and then shortly after that.......we will become six.....dalb6 for short. :-)
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
W30D2.Tuesday.November 17th
Weight 158
I saw a weblog where the woman measured her waist each week so I wanna start doing that too. But I am going to have to go buy a new tape measure first, because my sewing one, I've had for years, is missing.
I had bronchitis and a sinus infection last week (tried to blame it on the H1N1 shot from the week before but they said nope that only lasts a week and this came on right after that time frame). I was prescribed augmentin (sp?) which did wonders for me as far as feeling back to normal. It gave me a HORRIBLE yinfection, which started almost simultaneously. It really sucks to itch what you can barely reach. It sux to itch what you CAN reach - not sure if i have mentioned it yet but for atleast a month, my "nursing parts" have been unbelievably itchy with dry skin too. I have even treated them with my favorite meosporin to no avail - since I can get a couple drop out each day for the past couple weeks - no embarrassing leaking or anything fun...yet. Today I am tired and I have a tooth ache (3rd day actually). Trying to wait it out because sometimes with sinus irritation comes tooth sensitivity but 3 days?!?!?! I will pray for it to go away with the promise of - I'll fix it after the baby comes. Hopefully that'll work.
I had cramping from 3p-430p on Sunday. I thought it was the big one and even though I couldn't talk through a lot of the cramping (I'm a wuss and have never had cramps with my monthly cycle - thank God - they HURT) I think I was mentally prepared for it - if it was real. Of course they were way too close together and had no regularity. I have to wait for the ones that don't stop and get stronger and rythmically closer together and as ready as I think I am now I know deep down that my patience will be tested and this pregnancy will last a while longer. I do want a natural birth-meaning on God's timing-not mine-so I hopefully and anxiously wait and think every little nuance that occurs is finally it. Hahhahaha that's how my heart is guiding me anyways. My brain has different ideas but it's being overun by hormones so it ain't working for the most part. My brain knows I am environmentally unprepared at this point but I am in a daze most hours of the day so I never really get anything done productively towards baby dalbo's arrival. I can't even focus on dinner preparations or driving somewhere. I have given up on using a purse because I can't ever find anything I need in it and have trouble keeping track of it anyways.
I read yesterday that babies sleep 90-95% of the day at this point in the pregnancy - not so for us - baby dalbo was active almost every waking hour yesterday and so far this morning as well
I saw a weblog where the woman measured her waist each week so I wanna start doing that too. But I am going to have to go buy a new tape measure first, because my sewing one, I've had for years, is missing.
I had bronchitis and a sinus infection last week (tried to blame it on the H1N1 shot from the week before but they said nope that only lasts a week and this came on right after that time frame). I was prescribed augmentin (sp?) which did wonders for me as far as feeling back to normal. It gave me a HORRIBLE yinfection, which started almost simultaneously. It really sucks to itch what you can barely reach. It sux to itch what you CAN reach - not sure if i have mentioned it yet but for atleast a month, my "nursing parts" have been unbelievably itchy with dry skin too. I have even treated them with my favorite meosporin to no avail - since I can get a couple drop out each day for the past couple weeks - no embarrassing leaking or anything fun...yet. Today I am tired and I have a tooth ache (3rd day actually). Trying to wait it out because sometimes with sinus irritation comes tooth sensitivity but 3 days?!?!?! I will pray for it to go away with the promise of - I'll fix it after the baby comes. Hopefully that'll work.
I had cramping from 3p-430p on Sunday. I thought it was the big one and even though I couldn't talk through a lot of the cramping (I'm a wuss and have never had cramps with my monthly cycle - thank God - they HURT) I think I was mentally prepared for it - if it was real. Of course they were way too close together and had no regularity. I have to wait for the ones that don't stop and get stronger and rythmically closer together and as ready as I think I am now I know deep down that my patience will be tested and this pregnancy will last a while longer. I do want a natural birth-meaning on God's timing-not mine-so I hopefully and anxiously wait and think every little nuance that occurs is finally it. Hahhahaha that's how my heart is guiding me anyways. My brain has different ideas but it's being overun by hormones so it ain't working for the most part. My brain knows I am environmentally unprepared at this point but I am in a daze most hours of the day so I never really get anything done productively towards baby dalbo's arrival. I can't even focus on dinner preparations or driving somewhere. I have given up on using a purse because I can't ever find anything I need in it and have trouble keeping track of it anyways.
I read yesterday that babies sleep 90-95% of the day at this point in the pregnancy - not so for us - baby dalbo was active almost every waking hour yesterday and so far this morning as well
Monday, November 2, 2009
W28D1.Monday.November 2nd
Weight 154.5
Got H1N1 vaccine Friday and handled it well. I hadn't eaten breakfast prior so when I felt shaky afterwards I couldn't really blame it on the vaccine. And really since I feel "odd" at different times anyways I didn't really think I would be able to tell if I actually had any reaction at all.
I am excited that I am only 9 weeks from a full term delivery. I'm also scared, apprehensive, nervous, and anxious.
I think I figured out where I may have miscommunicated with the doc last week. When she said contractions I included braxton hicks' and she was only referring to labor contractions. I now recall her saying cramping-like near the base of the uterus, which I coincidentally started having this weekend. Only 2 or 3 per day but it is nice/comforting to know that I really will feel the difference and be able to calculate start and end times too. I will start using a program I got for my phone to record them so that I don't have to depend on my feeble memory.
We got another great craigslist deal on Saturday. A pretty little pink vibrating bouncy seat for FREE. It's in great condition. Hopefully the baby will get some use out of it!
Oh and for a couple weeks now - I hate bending over and will do ANYTHING in my power not to! :-)
Got H1N1 vaccine Friday and handled it well. I hadn't eaten breakfast prior so when I felt shaky afterwards I couldn't really blame it on the vaccine. And really since I feel "odd" at different times anyways I didn't really think I would be able to tell if I actually had any reaction at all.
I am excited that I am only 9 weeks from a full term delivery. I'm also scared, apprehensive, nervous, and anxious.
I think I figured out where I may have miscommunicated with the doc last week. When she said contractions I included braxton hicks' and she was only referring to labor contractions. I now recall her saying cramping-like near the base of the uterus, which I coincidentally started having this weekend. Only 2 or 3 per day but it is nice/comforting to know that I really will feel the difference and be able to calculate start and end times too. I will start using a program I got for my phone to record them so that I don't have to depend on my feeble memory.
We got another great craigslist deal on Saturday. A pretty little pink vibrating bouncy seat for FREE. It's in great condition. Hopefully the baby will get some use out of it!
Oh and for a couple weeks now - I hate bending over and will do ANYTHING in my power not to! :-)
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
W27D3.Wednesday.October 28th
Weight was 152.5 at home this morning. Yesterday at the docs it was 159.5. Heartrate was 150. Doc basically said that losing the plug, patternless contractions, and some dialation was perfectly normal for a pregnancy following two births. She was very negative though to everything I told her was going on. I was finally like WHATEVER I'm the pregnant one here, and moreover I'm an adult who can answer questions - - she would ask a question then answer it opposite how I would have answered. Grrrrrrr. Again WHATEVER! Fingers crossed she ain't the one who delivers me! HA - I just called to check on my next appointment and it was with that same doc so I CHANGED it! :-) And actually I am going to see a doctor I've yet to see so that's good too.
And speaking of that office - I took the time yesterday to read a posted notice before my appointment, and then it finally hit home this morning when my boss was telling me how his wife's labor experience was this past weekend. I would not want to deliver a baby right now. Because of the H1N1 flu they are only allowing one person and one person only to stay with you in labor and delivery AND post partum recovery. One specific person - not one visitor - ONE SPECIFIC PERSON. There is no trading of visitor passes or anything like that. And God forbid your child is born early and stays in the NICU, ONLY parents are allowed. No siblings, no grandparents, no nobody. This H1N1 thing needs to be on it's way. Joe has too much responsibilty at work and home to be the only person allowed to see me and the baby. What a crock! Looks like I need to call the hospital today and see when they expect to lift this ban on guests. ORRRRRRRR I just do the homebirth thing after all! HA! Imagine that! That's who I should call - - - the insurance company and see if they can change their policy "just this once".
And speaking of that office - I took the time yesterday to read a posted notice before my appointment, and then it finally hit home this morning when my boss was telling me how his wife's labor experience was this past weekend. I would not want to deliver a baby right now. Because of the H1N1 flu they are only allowing one person and one person only to stay with you in labor and delivery AND post partum recovery. One specific person - not one visitor - ONE SPECIFIC PERSON. There is no trading of visitor passes or anything like that. And God forbid your child is born early and stays in the NICU, ONLY parents are allowed. No siblings, no grandparents, no nobody. This H1N1 thing needs to be on it's way. Joe has too much responsibilty at work and home to be the only person allowed to see me and the baby. What a crock! Looks like I need to call the hospital today and see when they expect to lift this ban on guests. ORRRRRRRR I just do the homebirth thing after all! HA! Imagine that! That's who I should call - - - the insurance company and see if they can change their policy "just this once".
Monday, October 26, 2009
W27D1.Monday.October 26th
I love my job and it's a really good job. I work with wonderful people. I don't think I have ever "dreaded" coming to work. I like coming to work. Until today. I am just not in the mood. I've not been in the mood before but this morning was different. But I showed up like a good girl who needs her vacation for the first week of leave before short term disability kicks in :-)
Something else weird happened - I am hopeful the scale was wrong but Sunday my weight came up as 147. I should not be losing 8 pounds right now! Even if I did poop twice in 24 hours. I didn't poop THAT much, well I truthfully didn't weigh it - but it's highly unlikely. And of course I was like the walking dead this morning so I skipped the weigh in altogether.
Something else that happened...my cervix opened up more. Dilating at this point REALLY does not bother me AT ALL. It does bother me though to eat, poop or have gas, because I feel pressure down there and think "It's happening". I really do hope the baby stays put for 10 more weeks though - 69 days to be exact. I just want a professional to say that I can "walk around like this" for 10 more weeks. Otherwise - I don't know what to expect, because I cannot do bedrest. I am sure everything will be fine when they check me out at the doctor's office tomorrow at 1pm.
Something else weird happened - I am hopeful the scale was wrong but Sunday my weight came up as 147. I should not be losing 8 pounds right now! Even if I did poop twice in 24 hours. I didn't poop THAT much, well I truthfully didn't weigh it - but it's highly unlikely. And of course I was like the walking dead this morning so I skipped the weigh in altogether.
Something else that happened...my cervix opened up more. Dilating at this point REALLY does not bother me AT ALL. It does bother me though to eat, poop or have gas, because I feel pressure down there and think "It's happening". I really do hope the baby stays put for 10 more weeks though - 69 days to be exact. I just want a professional to say that I can "walk around like this" for 10 more weeks. Otherwise - I don't know what to expect, because I cannot do bedrest. I am sure everything will be fine when they check me out at the doctor's office tomorrow at 1pm.
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